Part of what kept me afloat during the really bad weeks was a 8+ hour a day gaming habit. Then it somehow turned into 10+ hours a day in the two weeks. All those hours went into a single MMORPG because I like COLLECTING STUFF even if it's only virtual. Professions and breeding mounts were the parts I was hooked on the most.

I fully understood that every minute I spent on it was a minute wasted, and no matter how much time I poured into it, I was never going to *get* anything out of it. I came to that understanding sometime last week, and after hitting myself in the head with it for a few days, I uninstalled the game on Friday.

The days have passed since then with varying degrees of gamelust. I've scratched the itch ineffectually with small puzzle games, and once I gave into weakness and tried to check something on my laptop (where the game was still installed), but the version was out of date, so I was saved from myself.

Right now the craving is really bad. I've spent most of today drawing, and Reagan's been gone for the past 4.5 hours, so I'm low on energy, food, and willpower.

I'll be okay. When I finish writing I'll get up, go downstairs, be away from the computer for a while. I'll stop thinking about the loose ends I left by reminding myself that nothing is ever fully resolved, and besides I should never, at any point in the future, go back.

It was never really relaxing. and I can find better ways to spend my time.

But from time to time, it's still really hard to move on.

PS: as someone who spends most of the time at the computer and often has weird little things to say and no-one in particular to say them to, I'm the perfect candidate for twitter. But as a quasi-neo-Luddite, I refuse to partake.